healthcare in america is the most glaringly obvious example of how utterly BAD capitalism is as an economic device.

the idea that something so important to the fabric of a community comes with a price tag... a fucking PROFIT margin.

Capitalism is not good, America is not good, Selfishness, Greed and Apathy are not good.

Every couple of days I vascialate wildly from satisfied to sick and fucking tired of it all.

Its like the karmic pendulum is swinging so quickly I can no longer make sense of which extreme it's cutting through. I'm just clinging to it and shutting my eyes but it keeps moving faster, faster... Its a ride I can't get off of, but unlike most tumultuous madcap experiences it will only end when I do... Meditation, practice... its said these lead to whatever I seem to need... but i've nearly stopped entirely. Two years ago my world started collapsing, then it got worse... now I'm supposedly through it, but i feel like i'm just lying in the shambles of it all. And its so thick, so fucking oppressive that even breathing takes work.

There are two posts here... not just one... and i suppose i'll likely delete one of them by morning... i hate the idea of all that hopelessness

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